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Insofar...

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2010

Breathe Carolina
MeVsHero
Lights and Sounds
Random Hand
Mouthwash
Chris Murray and friends
All Time Low
The Blackout
Young Guns
My Passion
We Are The Ocean (signing)
The Blackout (signing)
Cobra Starship
Family Force 5
Futures
The Humour
YouMeAtSix
Forever The Sickest Kids
We The Kings
Madina Lake
We Are The Ocean
Brokencyde
Jeffree Starr
Alesana
A Skylit Drive
Bury Tomorrow

2009

Young Guns
My Emergency x2
We Are The Ocean x2
All Forgotten
Glamour of the Kill
Escape the Fate x2
The Skints
The Knockout
Sonic Boom Six
Random Hand x4
Furthest Drive Home
Danger Radio
Forever The Sickest Kids
Suburban Legends
~~Reel Big Fish~~
Hey Monday x3
Fall Out Boy
Kids In Glass Houses x2
Backyard Babies
The Rasmus
Lights
In This Moment
The King Blues
The Academy Is
Emery
The Answer
AC/DC
Mimi Soya
Cash Cash
Sing It Loud x2
Cobra Starship x2
Hollywood Undead x2
Canterbury
John Barrowman
The Horrors
Family Force 5
My Passion! x 2
We The Kings
Out Of Sight x2
Every Avenue
Stereo Skyline
Summerlin
Dan Potthast
Nanas Revenge
Muse

2008
Random Hand x2
The Maine
We The Kings
Failsafe
The Academy Is...
The Fratellis + guest
John Goff
BOTB@Halifax Victoria Theatre

Because everwhere else is taken...

2009-09-20T00:45:00.002+01:00

NOTE: THE FOLLOWING ENTRY IS OF MY OWN OPINION.
Fo-Fucking-Sho.

I can't vent anywhere, because everyone knows about everywhere else!

urgh.

Ok so... a friend went to a gig in Manchester, and stayed behind for whatever reason long enough for her and her party to miss the train, resulting in them spending the night in the train station.

First of all... NO band is big enough that you risk your own safety, and the safety of the people with you by not getting HOME after a gig. Having love for a band is an amazing thing, seeing your favourite band live can be pretty fucking amazing, I understand, appreciate and even agree with this.

So why, one might ask, am I complaining?

Well, I'm not complaining, I'm merely putting my opinion, wanted or not, forth.

My mum is over-protective to the core. She has the whole 'worrying until I know you're safe' thing down to a fine, if not sometimes irritating, art. Most of the time it's pretty annoying. In fact, I'd say all the time it's pretty annoying, but I appreciate it. She's my mum... mum to three other boys too... it's her job and her right to worry. I get it.

So, putting myself in my friend's position... had I missed a train after a gig with my kid brother in manchester... the LAST train home... (abso-fucking-lutley NO lyrical reference intended)... my mum would not be happy to say the least.

The mere thought of your children being stick in another city in a train station over night with only a few friends for company... my mum would have driven to Manchester to pick us up.

What I don't understand... what I can't accept on any level, is the mentality. The thought process that went into first realising that you would miss the last train if you stayed till the very end of the gig... then deciding that you'd watch the last of the gig anyway because 'this band is my favourite band so I'm gonna watch it all tyvm'.

The BEST band in the whole fucking WORLD could play at the Manchester Academy... and could headline, and could finish at half 10 or whatever... The best band could do that... but if the last train back home was at 10:20, 10:40... whatever... I'd leave the gig early. I'd drag whoever I'd gone with out of the venue and drag them to the train station.

I would NOT risk my safety, or the safety of others for a few songs. No matter WHAT the band.

If that makes me weird... so be it.

But I won't be sorry for thinking getting home after a gig is a GOOD idea.

I just... don't get the mentality!

NOTHING IS WORTH IT!

I LOVE music... I mean... seriously. I love it. It's a constant in my life that I don't think I could do without. But no band is bigger than the safety of me, my family, or my friends.

In other words... I wouldn't sleep in a fucking train station to listen to a few songs I could listen to online later.

Not the same, oh Lord do I know. But my opinion stands.

If something happened... I could never forgive myself for being so fucking stupid.

The fact that nothing DID happen does not negate the fact that it was pure fucking stupidity, and selfishness.

I'm not sure if the reason I'm getting so worked up about this is because she... THEY risked their safety for a few songs, or the fact that they didn't PLAN ahead for such an eventuality.

I mean... they KNEW the train times... they knew the line-up... they've been to lord knows how many gigs before... they knew what could possibly happen.

SO WHY NOT FUCKING PLAN FOR IT?!??!?!??!

I'll never get it. Never in a million fucking years.

"it was certainly an exp though-" NO IT WASN'T!
"it was worth it-" NO IT WASN'T!

Love, adoration... fucking worship or a band does not give anyone the right to be STUPID!

Gigs are great, gigs are fucking amazing.. if one knows how they are getting home before hand.

*sigh*
CVQ.

PS. The reason for that rant? Yeah... I stayed after a gig once to meet the band. Loved the band, the music... fancied the fuck outta the guitarist... both of them ;) but... it was in Leeds. I live in Bradford. The taxi cost... £22. And it got us straight to my house. While not the safest option... certainly safer than a fucking trainstation.

~signing off.

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Now thats a sass suit

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Bus stop

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Current view

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Rah

2009-04-04T23:53:00.001+01:00

2009-03-28T21:13:00.000Z

i beet its all hillarious to them.

no joke.

people scampering for contact, im no exception.

but yeh..

hillarious

Wall 2

2009-03-27T17:06:00.001Z

Love

2009-03-24T22:01:00.003Z

Buns

2009-03-23T22:11:00.001Z

Dress

2009-03-23T22:10:00.001Z

Laila blood

2009-03-23T22:09:00.001Z

Me

2009-03-21T21:56:00.001Z

Heels

2009-03-21T21:26:00.001Z

This is huge

2009-03-18T15:58:00.001Z

He thought it was rita

2009-03-16T17:01:00.000Z

Lol!

2009-02-12T01:59:00.001Z

Forever The Sickest Kids on Saturday...
Reel Big Fish on Tuesday....

awesomeeeeeeeeee

gigs...

2009-02-05T11:52:00.001Z

20/01/09
We Are The Ocean
My Emergency
Young Guns

26/01/09
Escape The Fate
Glamour of the Kill
All Forgotten
(Glamour of the Kill OWNED Escape the Fate)

01/02/09
Random Hand
Sonic Boom Six
The Knockout
The Skints

14/02/09
Forever The Sickest Kids
Danger Radio
Furthest Drive Home

17/02/09
Reel Big Fish
Random Hand

05/03/09
Fall Out Boy
Kids In Glass Houses
Hey Monday

19/04/09
[Give It A Name 2009]
Enter Shikari
The Blackout
The Academy Is...
The King Blues
Emery
Lights
In This Moment

23/04/09
AC/DC

20/05/09
Cobra Starship
Sing It Loud
Cash Cash
Mimi Soya

23/05/09
We The Kings
Hey Monday

24/05/09
Slam Dunk 2009

26/05/09
John Barroman

18/08/09
Family Force 5

2009-02-03T01:42:00.001Z

Laila and I are back to normal.

to say the least

2009-01-29T23:22:00.001Z

It's us against the world.

What the fuck's up with this philosophical crap?

Making me not want this Sunday

2009-01-29T19:52:00.002Z

So, I'm giving up.

I've never felt so much like I've been kicked in the fucking gut before.

Fuck it all.

Fuck the fucking tickets.

I've had enough.

Why is it that Uni and Sazuh are the only things that make me happy anymore?

myspacewhore

2009-01-28T21:41:00.000Z

This freaks me the fuck out

It's getting late... your eyes are closed but mine are wide awake

2009-01-28T11:25:00.001Z

I'm overreacting about everything

I'll just go back to how I was before, then maybe, things will.

Sometimes events lead life to be abit crap tbh

sing a song of sixpence

2009-01-27T20:37:00.002Z

I think I'm making things worse with Laila, but I can't just switch off when I'm around her.

Or I can, and that's the problem.

fuck.

wtf?!?!?!??

2009-01-26T12:11:00.002Z

ok so I'm in lesson right now... blogging.

WE'RE SO BLOGGING

stupid panic.

anyway....

just rewatched the new cadbury's video.... still freaked me out something shocking :|

slash me baby

2009-01-25T22:37:00.002Z

p “how do you do that one move where you throw the chain around your neck and just look awesome”

u “wait who are you again?”

for real we were doing new baby talk and usher gave me some advice.

please note that he was wearing a tux and i was wearing a dirty shirt and a midtown bracelet.

also, jesus christ- am i seriously a “close talker” thats fucking annoying. stop pete.

put those fingers at ease the slash isnt that great. we both have rad wives that teach us to dress better. (his was present, mine was not. note the difference).

Direct quote from PWs blog.

HAHAHHA@slash reference. I totally missed that the last five times I saw the entry.

it made me lol a lot hahha

Cadbury's are weird

2009-01-24T20:18:00.000Z

wtff?

five seconds

2009-01-23T21:10:00.001Z

I don't know where I stand
With the likes of you
To take my fragile hand
To help see you through...

fuck dude.

five seconds of emo.

Back to Hey Monday...

2009-01-17T19:58:00.002Z

When I said I listened to Hey Monday on their myspace, and I said it made me cry it was so bad...

I didn't mean I hate Hey Monday personally.

I'm sure they are amazingly nice people with nice personalities and interesting opinions on whatever and things.

It's just their music.

It isn't because they're 'the next big thing', or the 'next Paramore', or even because of the fact that they are getting big quick.

It just the music I don't like. Her singing voice is grating. The sound is too pop trying to be something else. It's too something and what-thefuck-ever.

I'm absolutley no one to judge anyone, but I am an avid music listener. My tastes span genres...

to quote a very amusing comedian, "I am the genre spanner." (the rebuke to which was 'you're the spanner alright')

But... Hey Monday.

They aren't like Paramore in anything other than the fact that there's a female vocalist and its pop sounding.

I actually like a few Paramore songs.

rah.

I don't want to be made bad for not liking the music, but I do.

I appreciate a band like Fall Out Boy taking a band like Hey Monday out with them on tour... having them open the show... a new band needs experience and exposure if they're hoping to get big, and Fall Out Boy/ Pete Wentz is a perfect way to do it... if he likes you, you're basically set.

not to assume anything of course.

but case in point, Panic at the Disco. They had the hand of Wentz (far be it for me to compare him with God but it's a good phrase to use in this instance) and its almost an over night success story.

I didn't even like Panic to begin with... I heard the demo version of Camisado when I was seriously into heavy metal and thought... no. no way in hell.

But, y'know, opinion's change and now Panic is one of my favourite bands.

Not thatI ever think Hey Monday will be one of my favourite bands, but y'know. Compare and share a like.

In a reversal turn of thought however, I also don't appreciate it when people... fans... fangirls of Fall Out Boy, say they hate Hey Monday or other bands JUST because they're in their videos.

I mean... what the fuck? :/

Share the love dude. Share the Fucking Love. :]

anyway yeah.

I don't hate the band, I just really really really don't like the music.

cq

Completely pointless, but I had to get it out.

2009-01-17T19:32:00.002Z

My friend is bipolar.

Weird... I mean... I want to understand fully and completely. I have another friend who is Type II, but I think Kim is Type I... I glanced at something that said Type I pertaining to her, and assumed, if you aren't Kim, I'm sorry for assuming, but yeah.

I do want to understand. But at the same time, I don't...

Sarah says she understands how I feel. And she might.

But it's so terrifying to me.

My friend cut up her arms and face before Christmas, then her arms again... today she posted pictures of her arms to a facebook page for people who are Bipolar.

It made me cry to see them. I mean, I've seen the marks on her arm before, but not.. not like that. And it's scary.

So fucking scary and Kim... Kim is so awesome that at times, she appears to be this uber happy woman I've gotten to know these months since the start of Uni and I know she had problems, mental issues - which makes her sound like a head case, but she's not. Anyway, I knew she problems, but it didn't deduct from how much I enjoyed being around her, or being her friend.

Still doesn't.

But it's scary!

I'm scared for her. I don't want her to hurt. I don't want her to feel the need to cut her face or her arms, I don't want her to feel the need to cut anything! But she does and it's like...

I can't even describe it.

Once, I had a friend who lived in Cornwall; I'd met him online and that was fine and all... he did coke, other drugs, drank, but he was rebelling against whatever and I didn't give two craps about what he did to himself. I mean, I chastised him, obviously, cause, I didn't want him to hurt himself with what he was doing. He kept doing it anyway. Oh well.

But one night... I don't know what was wrong with him, but he was on webcam with me, and he was drinking whiskey or something, and had taken something before, and he had a huge fucking carving knife. I don't know wtf he was thinking, or even if he was thinking, but he started laughing...

Then took the knife, still laughing, and tried to do a poor tasted imitation of that scene in face off where they cut John Travolta's face off around his hairline, in front of his ears and around his chin? Well, Aider, my friend's name, cut around his face, and when that was done he moved onto cutting into his cheeks, still laughing, and I was crying, telling him to stop, but he didn't.

I eventually ran downstairs, got a knife myself and wentback to the cam and told him to stop or I'd do exactly the same.

He stopped, but I think it was more because he didnt have anything else to cut than because I'd said what I'd said.

I didn't talk to him for three years, and when I did eventually talk to him again, it was brief... and he had a girlfriend. He offered to let me watch him and her have sex on webcam and I deleted him from my msn completely.

I haven't spoken to him since.

I KNOW, rationally, that Kim wouldn't do anything like that to me, or at all... to anyone, her boyfriend, her mum, whatever, but it's STILL fucking scary.

I hate thinking of her like that.

And my desire to understand bipolar is outweight by my fear of what it does to her, what it makes her do. So I don't want to understand.

I feel like a horrid friend for not wanting to. And I'm sorry Kim.

I don't even want to put Kim and Aider in the same entry, because that's like disgracing her.

I don't know.

I'm just... scared.

I don't want to lose her.

cq

FOB KIGH HM

2009-01-15T22:30:00.002Z

So, we found out who are going to be supporting Fall Out Boy at their March show.

Kids In Glass Houses, and Hey Monday.

I checked out Hey Monday's Myspace and their stuff...made me cry it was so bad to my ears.

Seriously. So so so so soooo bad.

I almost don't want to go, but I resolved myself to listening to Fall Out Boy on my mp3 player during their set.

Is that rude?

:/

I have no opinion of KIGH other than their recent release was overplayed into nonexistance on kerrang.

2009-01-13T02:25:00.000Z

secret order of fob?

can these guys fuck with your head anymore?

WOAHWOWOAHHHH

2009-01-13T00:14:00.002Z

I'm listening to FTSK. Awesome.

And I feel amazing.

I HAVE A LAILA BACK YO MOTHERFUCKERSSSSSSSSSSS

I'm utterly extatic.

She called me a dramaqueen.

But I can totally live with that.
I WAS losing her. Despite what she thought.

But I Haz a Laila Backz now

<3

hmm

2009-01-12T21:49:00.003Z

So, I'm giving up LailanKris.

Everything about it.

I'm giving up.

I'm not talking to either one about the other, I'm not bringing it up, or talking about it when it's brought up.

I feel like I lost my best friend.

I don't like that feeling.

It's not happening.

But.

I won't stop talking to him.

Because despite all he's done to her, he is a nice guy.

Get-thefuck-off

2009-01-10T21:23:00.002Z

Turn myself on with nice imagery

Turn myself off with a shower.

Story of my fucking life.

RAH

2009-01-09T20:00:00.000Z

I want someone to PLEASE come see Escape the Fate with me :(

OMG EPIC

2009-01-08T01:04:00.002Z

Keep in mind, we read fanfiction, slash, bandom, what-thefuck-ever. Though I haven't read this pairing in... ever actually.

~~~~

[Pfftr Is My Typo] [TG] - Media Blitz says:
Ray
Fucking
Toro
Just Made Me
Lose The Game.
·#·$11[ ·$40Peter Pan ·$11] ·0 [ABitFit] [TG] Nothing Sucks Like A Gabe Saporta. Liz♥ says:
D: how?
[Pfftr Is My Typo] [TG] - Media Blitz says:
Let's play a game...
posted by Ray on Jan 07, 2009 7:22am

·#·$11[ ·$40Peter Pan ·$11] ·0 [ABitFit] [TG] Nothing Sucks Like A Gabe Saporta. Liz♥ says:
and frank you Spence Wentz >[Pfftr Is My Typo] [TG] - Media Blitz says:
http://www.mychemicalromance.com/
·#·$11[ ·$40Peter Pan ·$11] ·0 [ABitFit] [TG] Nothing Sucks Like A Gabe Saporta. Liz♥ says:
rah
i hope Bob fucks him hard for that >< !

HHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

likes and loathing

2009-01-03T22:43:00.002Z

Do you ever get the feeling when....

You're in the middle of an argument, and you find youself taking the side you know you shouldn't?

damn it to hell.

In other news, I now like Pierce The Veil.

Cause you're my mate, and I, will stand by you

2009-01-01T16:00:00.001Z

This is the dogs bollocks

No chicken bollocks required

oh happy day

2009-01-01T11:55:00.002Z

So... guess what?

I'm becoming incredibly rude.

Instance the first: My uncle died.

My aunt, his wife (dads sister) [Karen], and my other aunt, hers (and my dads) sister [Hazel], came over to my house for a couple of drinks to be around family, yknow?

As one does.

And I'm home... And ok, I'm tired, I'm achy, I feel like shite and all I want to do is sleep.

I didn't want Karen to come over that night.

Call me selfish, but what the fuck am I supposed to say to someone who just lost their husband?

Call me fucking callous, whatever you want, but I did not know what to say to her at all so I stayed in my room all night, and slept a bit... and mum brought it up today again and made me feel bad for not saying anyting to her. But I'm serious... What The Fuck am I supposed to say to her?

"I'm sorry for your loss."?

The guy was nice, don't get me wrong. But what am I sorry for? what does that saying even mean anyway?

"I'm sorry for your loss..."

Like its the speakers fault. I've always hated that saying, and I won't ever be accused of using it in conversation.

Awkward silence is better than meaningless words designed to make a person feel better when realy it's just another monotonous drone coupled with weak, ineffective, slightly condescending, but mildly appreciative smiles.

And last night... all I wanted to do was spend the night on my own.

New Years be damned.

But no, I was forcefed singstar.... I refused to sing. Jack being Jack found a way to cheat automatically.

anyway, the point is, i just wanted to be left alone last night and they kept pushing and pushing

and I didn't have as much fun as I could have.

And I'm getting a fucking lock for my bedroom door.

Rah

2009-01-01T00:08:00.001Z

Happy New Years Motherfuckers :)

Get off

2008-12-31T20:09:00.003Z

So... last night I did a stupid thing.

I took my best friend... and told her I was kinda into her and jealous of her boyfriend cause he got to have her while I remained the ever faithful best friend.

And not the world's gone to the fucking dogs and it's all because she was winding me up all night and I called her oblivious a few times.

oh my fuck how stupid can one person be?

Thing is... I really really... really like Kris. He makes her smile in ways I can't, but I make her smile in ways he can't and that's alright, that's fair. I can live with that.

Get over yourself and get on with your life Chrissi.

:|

Oh hell yes, I'm a nervous wreck

2008-12-31T18:12:00.000Z

I'm going to be frank.

I want to get the fuck off.

Like

Now.

*whimpers*

:'(

Part of Christmas

2008-12-24T19:26:00.001Z

Sazuh gave me this for Christmas. It's Cobra Starship riding a Cobra and it's Awesome :]

MikeyWay's phone number is...

2008-12-20T21:38:00.001Z

*giggle*

MCRmy, Salute your Generals!

2008-12-16T19:45:00.005Z

I just watched Welcome to the Black Parade - MCR

I miss them so much right now. When Ben's asleep, I'm putting them on from Bullets to Parade and I'm going to enjoy every second.

1-11-08: Leeds Academy: The Fratellis + Special Guests.

2008-12-04T15:36:00.002Z

Monday December 1st, 2008 - The Academy, Leeds - The Fratellis + Special Guests.

Arriving around half 6 was the best option for us as we had an e-ticket and were thus required to go to the box office to obtain the right ticket form. I'll say this about e-tickets... the best thing about them, is the fact that we gained entry via the back entrance and so weren't required to wait in line outside... in the FREEZING.

Which, as it stands, is fair enough.

The opening act left a lot... and I say that with every ounce of my music listening, gig-going know-how, to be desired. They were, in my opinion, flat. A blatant 'samey' style of band, which alright, is what is to be expected when a band of any real popularity tours takes a lesser known (in this case, a complete unknown - they didn't even give us the band name).

It made me feel kinda jilted.

After the first set, and half an hour of extra preparation, the Fratellis came on stage to a tumultuous applause, excited screams, wolf-whistles and, as sad as it might sound, the throwing of certain alcoholic beverages.

Launching into 'Country Boy', 'Shameless', and 'Flawless', the crowd was into it with a serious passion. Going through tracks from their debut album and the more recent release, the Fratellis held their own and completely outshone their opening act.

Then... I say with an ominous pause... they played Chelsea Dagger; their huge first single.

To say the place errupted would... granted, be a dramatic overstatement, however the screams, shouts, whistles, cheers made for a pretty convincing synonym.

The rest of the show was intense, with people jumping up an down, waving their arms in the air, and at the risk of sounding cliche, dancing around like they just didn't care... Folk sang along, screamed along in some cases.

The show ended with a dramatic encore finale of their recent hit 'Mistress Mable', a track whose reaction rivalled that of the reaction when Chelsea Dagger was played.

Then it was over, the lights went on to signal the end, and as I was stood with my uncle right in front of the sound booth, I asked the sound guy for the set list... which he kindly handed me and I now have pinned on my wall.

Suffice it to say... the night was a complete success and thoroughly enjoyable.

Avenged Sevenfold - A Little Piece Of Heaven.

2008-11-27T00:48:00.000Z

Just awesome

2008-11-26T20:36:00.002Z

It's been a weird day

It started out great... got my assignment results. 90%!!! :D

Went to meet Jake, went to the bucks for a bit, had lunch...

but apparantly... and get this.

My friends go down to town every week on a Wednesday lunch time... thats like... every week.

So am I wrong to assume that they'll go down this Wednesday afternoon too? No, I'm not wrong.

So why the fuck are they making me feel like I'm wrong?

The only reason, other than great coffee, that I've been there a lot lately, is because believe it or not, I can't work well at home because I'm constantly being asked to do other things.

Take now for instance, I've been asked to get the baby to sleep. Why? Because mum's looking for a lottery ticket.

ffs

Look-a-like? haha

2008-11-25T22:34:00.002Z

Don't you think Axl Rose looks like Adam Savage?

It's awesome tbh <3

:D

Bucks and lucks

2008-11-25T09:53:00.002Z

So the funeral was yesterday and I didn't go. I'll go to enough in my life... why start earlier than I need to? Cold, maybe, but I don't mind. From what I heard, it wasn't exactly a pleasant experience either. If my mum cried, I don't know what my reaction would have been. But as my dad was nearly in tears himself, I think I'd be bloody bawling.

Nothing I'd like anyone to watch, let's put it that way.

So instead of going to the funeral, I looked after the baby at home and went into Uni to hand in the two pieces of coursework that had to be handed in yesterday... the maths, that I finished on Saturday in Starbucks... and the Effective Learner biography essay thing that I finished like.... three hours before I handed it in.

And Lord how much of a farce was that?

I went in at 3:15, handed in my maths one fine, but when I went to hand in the biography, I realised that I didn't have a front cover to one of the copies, so I had to go up to the library without my card... so I had to get a slip that would let me access the library (the first of three I'm allowed to use this year btw)... so I went into the library to use the photocopier to photocopy the front page of the essay... so I could add it to the copy that didn't have a front cover...

Then I went back down to Cobden where I FINALLY handed it in... :|

THEN.... I went to bucks :]

The highlight of my day by far hahhah

Spent an hour or so annoying Jake and.. Emma? Someone hah.

It was kinda fun.

OH!!! The other day I gave Renee a Sharpie :)

Cause... I have an order that takes up lots and lots of space.

Venti - Caramel - ExtraHot - Skinny - Wet - Latte.

Add a Decaf on there and its ALL the boxes. I so rock.

And they kept complaining about it so I bought them a sharpie so it'd fit on the little piece of paper. They were grateful :)

Sooooo brilliant <3

just tell me, im begging you

2008-11-15T23:17:00.002Z

they kicked a 17 month old between the legs and told one another they wanted to test his pain threshold

they pulled out his fingernails

they broke his back

they killed him

now you tell me, hand on your heart the Gods honest fucking truth of everything you've ever told anyone in your life... that you don't want them dead, that you don't want them to pay with every single trauma they caused him... that you don't want them sharing the same fuckng oxygen as the rest of the known world.

Because I would.

I so would.

And that petrifies me more than the nightmares this entire thing is giving me

:|

2008-11-15T19:56:00.003Z

I'm trying not to cry.
I'm trying not to cry.
I'm trying not to cry.
I'm trying not to cry.

Fuck this shit

effectivelearner+maths+ict=RAH

2008-11-15T15:09:00.003Z

I need to get this work done *sigh*

Would any woman...

2008-11-14T01:47:00.000Z

... ever admit to masturbation? Seriously?

It's weird tbh

-me

So... yeah

2008-11-13T22:35:00.002Z

So my uncle just died...

The weird thing is... I reacted more to the death of the baby a few days ago than I did to my uncles death. I don't know what it is... Kris says people react in different ways to different situations, and I know he's right.

I don't knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Then.... I was talking to dad about it about twenty minutes ago and he said...

"I cant believe my sister's a widow..."
"She's just... numb.. zoned... in pieces..."
"If it was your mum, and she died... I can honestly say that I believe that the only thing that woudl stop me drinking myself to death, would be ben."

And I'm like... more upset by that comment alone, than I am of my uncles death.

I think it'll hit me eventually though. I'll just... break down or some shit like that. I don' tknow. I hope not.

Cause... dude... that'd suck :/

-chrissi

It's brought home to me...

2008-11-11T22:39:00.002Z

My faith in the human race as an intelligent race of beings capable of great, wonderous things, has been severely shot today. Upon reading an article so disturbing it forced me to tears and blood loss (from a nose bleed), I don't think I'd ever wanted to bring back the death penalty so badly.

Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I have a 17 month old brother running around the house, I don't know, all I know is... a 17 month old little boy was killed by his carers, and authorities failed to notice after 60 visits from child protection officers.

I sit here, typing this with tears in my eyes after thinking back on it again and it breaks my heart.

My faith in the system is shot. This little boy has absolutely nothing to do with me and I'm reacting as if he were a close relation or even my own!

It's just sickening, and I can't even form into words the amount of anger, pain and sorrow I'm feeling right now.

I know two wrongs don't make a right, but I'd lay down odds that out of every single person that read that article, not one didn't want to put those people through every single trauma that boy went through.

I bet there'd be a reaction from authorities then, wouldn't we?

I've never been this affected by an article of any callibre before... I... I don't like it at all.

QWIZ :D

2008-11-10T21:28:00.001Z

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now.

10.
You're the co-best person in my life right now

9.
You're the co-best person in my life right now

8.
Your girlfriend's as quiet as you! It's so cute :D

7.
You make me laugh so much and I only met you in September!

6. I want you to listen, and listen good. I'm tired of hearing about it, I'm tried of being forced to think about it, I'm tired of wanting to tell you I don't give a flying fuck, but I don't. I'm a nice girl, but even I have my limits.

5.
Yesterday you made me giggle oh VALARIEEEEEEEEE HAHHAHHAH

4. You have a serious case of Awesome.
NEVER GET IT CHECKED OUT!

3: I can't believe we were only a friend apart! ILY! And miss your hugs!!

2.
You're amazing, awesome and I love you to pieces; you're the joint best things within one of the best things that's ever happened to me and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for being my friend :)

1.
You make me smile when I'm down, you make me lose the game more times than I can count just by being you, your smile is infectious and should never be not there, you're the joint best thing within one of the best things that's ever happened to me and I love you a hell of a lot :)

NINE things about yourself.

9) It's Chrissi... not Chris... not CQ... maybe Pfftr, but only in extreme cases.

8) I can be a two-faced bitch, but only when there's extreme feeling there

7) I swear too much hah

6) I'd like body modificaton to start with a lip piercing before moving onto tattoos. Lots.

5) "I don't wanna grow up... not a penny will I pinch.... I will never grow a mustache.... or a fraction of an inch..." :D

4) I love my guitar

3) Was just asked to do more tests for the possibility of dyslexia

2) Music is love and I plan to make it my life and I will succeed.

1) I'm a bit concerned about the planned amount of glowsticks for Cobra hah

EIGHT ways to win your heart.

8) Smile!

7) Make me smile! hah

6) Don't call me on my bullshit if it'll make me doubt myself, but mention it once or twice until I get the message :)

5) STARBUCKS!

4) HUGS!

3) I can't stand it when my friends are hurt, so don't bullshit around

2) Be you for me and you; let me be me for me and you

1) Listen to music

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot.

7) The Game - MARCO!

6) Uni

5) The combination of Laila and Diane

4) Writing and how I don't have much time to do it these days

3) Ideas

2) Music

1) The culmination of my reason for being; friends and family

SIX things you do before you fall asleep.

6) Get PJs on

5) Have latte

4) Put David Attenborough on low

3) Wash/brush teeth

2) Get bag ready for morning/ignore bag because lesson is in afternoon

1) Lie on my stomach > life my legs up > took the bottom of the quilt underneath my feet > put legs back down again.
:)

FIVE people who mean a lot at the moment.

5) Kim

4) Laila

3) Diane

2) Family.

1) Other friends; the candycane bunch :D

FOUR things you see right now.

4) Laptop

3) Perfume

2) Ironing board

1) Envelope containing Cobra tickets :D

THREE songs that you listen to often.

3) Fall Out Boy - Headfirst Slide into Cooperstown on a Bad Bet

2) We The Kings - Check Yes Juliet

1) Bon Jovi - These Days

TWO things you want to do before you die.

2) See Springsteen play for his home town

1) Suceed

ONE confession.

1) I'm the happiest I've ever been in ANY stage of my life, right at this moment in time. Friends, Family, Uni... It's all amazing.

I don't want to change, and you can't make me :)

quick run down

2008-11-09T19:39:00.002Z

Kris, Laila's new interest, asked me if I minded if he asked her out because he didn't want to monopolize her time... which I thought was darling and told him that no, i wouldn't mind at all.

Went to the bucks every day last week and Jake threatened to not serve me anymore until i told him I'd go to the other one, at which point he retracted his earlier statement. Hah.

Did brilliant in my maths exam; 84% \m/
Only got 53% in my Action Plan... *shrug*
Iuno.... handed in all my computer applications work.. but i need to go back tomorrow to put a last change in my spreadsheet work.

I should probably start Karl's soon too

rah oh well

-pfftr wishes wentz all the best :]

key to my christmas

2008-11-07T03:54:00.002Z

EXHIBIT A
EXHIBIT B
EXHIBIT D
EXHIBIT E

EXHIBIT C is ommitted from this key; photographic evidence is not available

I think Wentz needs to sleep more

2008-11-07T03:47:00.002Z

i can do anything and everything right now... save maybe sleep.

Can't sleep at all >.< I have a killer headache, maths lecture tomorrow afternoon... but sleep tonight? ohhhhno. Don't be silly! Sleep is for the SANE!

RAH!!!!!

I liked it when buzzcocks was funny btw.

XMAS!

gifts as follows...

To Laila I grant exhibit A, exhibit B and exhibit C.
To Diane I grant exhibit D, exhibit, B, and exhibit C.
To Sarah I grant exhibit E, and exhibit C.
To Kim I grant... tickets :D

Key to be found in next entry.

In other news, did an exam yesterday... did a presentation today. Doing pretty alright tbh.

I love uni so much <3

-pfftr

Story of my life

2008-11-03T00:15:00.000Z

But oh... what a story hah

We're going doing swinging

2008-10-30T15:50:00.003Z

Sitting in Starbucks and just finished my second Caramel Latte with Kim and trying, and failing, to get some work done while disturbing the clientelle with Fall Out Boy - Sugar We're Going Down

We're getting weird looks. hah

-Pfftr

BRING ON THE TRUMPETS!

2008-10-28T22:00:00.001Z

my thoughts on Holidays - enter expecting no frills

2008-10-26T22:50:00.002Z

So a holiday should be one of two things;

Completely awesome with your friends, possibly gf/bf... just relaxing and having fun.

OR

Completely awesome with your immediate family... mum, dad, brothers, sisters, etc.

A Holiday should NOT... I repeat to emphasise... NOT!!NOTNOTNOTNOTNOT be something for which you round up the girls in the family to go away together with.

NUP NO NEVER

It kinda makes me sick to my stomache... the thought of spending so much time with my extended family and not be able to get away if I wanted.

I guess I'm not that sociable.

But... you go on holiday to get away from your family... extended or otherwise depending on which of the first options you picked :) (there are others, but I'm feeling limiting), you don't decide to go away and think.... well... lets take every other fucker with us too. :/

urgh

RIP KINGS OF LEON

2008-10-26T21:48:00.002Z

I whine a hell of a lot.

hah

it's both amusing and kinda lame... but oh well

-pfftr

9 things...

2008-10-26T19:42:00.000Z

The world is a big place but I don't dislike everything in it, why bother?

I do, however, have a few pet peeves.

The giving of pointless information that is basically a pile of shite you put up to make yourself look rebellious when all you really is a sad sad little girl in dire need of someone to do with your life.
-Even though you have something perfectly time-fullfilling to do

Ignorant folk - even though my family is pretty ignorant to the family 'outside' the 'inside' family - at least I get what I mean.

Self-deprecation.

Pointless destruction of personal property in a hope to make oneself look 'kinda cool'

Pointless destruction of oneself - take that as you will, chances are you probably misunderstood my meaning.

Repetitive speaking; yeah, I repeat myself sometimes, but not everytime i open my mouth.

Those with the knowledge of how a certain topic makes a person feel, and yet continue to witter on anyway.

The ones lacking respect of anything.

The bitchy people; yeah, this includes me. I hate this particular fact about myself, but I acknowledge it.

:/

Mood: fuck if i know

One for the Bucks

2008-10-26T11:12:00.001Z

Diane and I in Starbucks. Aron took the picture.

Maybe I was a little hard on him :s Iuno...

I R A BEAUT

2008-10-25T23:14:00.002+01:00

So Laila bulletined that she didn't think she was beautiful, told everyone to NOT message her with words to the contrary.

Diane bulletined; claiming it wasn't messaging her personally.

I texted her and called her a knob.

Both actions were equally emphatic in their meanings.

:/ what a fucked up day

2008-10-21T20:06:00.003+01:00

Facebook has become a cesspool for old school friends.

They see a link, and grab a hold with both hands. This, understandably, isn't healthy.

For me anyway.

While I had a nice final few years at 6th form, the enjoyment I had during those years didn't even come close to the enjoyment I felt during my FIRST year in college.

And my second year.... my second year, I met the two best friends I'm ever likely to have, and I'm thankful for both of them! Their awesomeness knows no bounds, and better still... they're in no way connected with my old school.

School was fine for me, but it wasn't stellar.

I don't want to be reminded of that ever time I log onto Facebook so I have two choices...

Delete my account and create a new one.

Or delete my old school friends.

Decisions.

So today...

Today started off brilliant. I went to class, wrote some stuff, shows Kim what I wrote and let her have a good gander around my blog... and I realised how much shit I actually come out with RAH

But when I left to meet Diane in town, I think something came over me or... iuno.. SOMETHING

Because I turned into a bitch.

I swear to CHRIST it was bitchy Chrissi.

!!!!

I just...

First of all I shouted at Milena. Again.

This time I didn't stop myself, I just told her straight to make up her mind about what she wanted with Danny. Guess what? SHE DOESN'T KNOW!!! SHE LOVES HIM! SHE HATES HIM! I wanted to wring her neck >.
Not cool.

Then..

I love Diane to bits. She's amazing and adorable and Diane. You can't help but be amazed by how amazing she is. Right?

She has this nedw boyfriend though; Aron. He came to meet her today and while we were at Starbucks, we just hung out and everything was cool. Then he started to tear his jeans up... for no reason?!

Then he drew on his jeans, then his boots...

GOD!

It was pointless destruction.

Then going to the council building because I had to sort something out for my loan, they came in with me and.... it's a council building, you're supposed to act with some level of sanity/decorum, right?

WRONG!

No decorum. No thought. No NOTHING!

Gosh I could have swung for him I swear!

Thennnn in Zavvi... he started to.... point things out. Whenever anyone of us picked up a CD, he'd say 'I have that'... 'I've got all their stuff', 'Oh I have all the MCR albums... even the bonus instrumental ones'... 'I have...' 'I've got...'

As much and as dearly as I love Diane... Her boyfriend drives me up the wall.

The thing is.... he's NICE. And he's nice to Diane.

*sigh*

-Pfftr

Try This..

2008-10-21T11:44:00.002+01:00

Tuesday 16th October 2008 – The Maine, We The Kings, The Academy Is...
Walking inside the venue, I was greeted by a sea – no, more a small lake... a pond if you will – of gig-goers trying to press themselves into the stage, and impress their presence on that of the opening act.

Hailing from Tempe, Arizona in the US, The Maine launch into their set with enviable passion, heart and soul. Tracks from their 2008 album and their 2007 EP were played with intermediate banter with the crowd got everyone fired up for more songs, more bands… Catchy lyrics, guitar riffs that you can’t help but bop to caught my attention instantly. I felt an immediate respect for this band, and speaking with the lead vocalist (John O’Callaghan) later, I learned it was their first time over in the UK. Nursing an injured wrist (broken during a fall down some stairs), O’Callaghan said he was thoroughly enjoying his time here, that the crowds were amazing and so responsive!

Keep playing your music like that and you’ll find your fan base will grow and grow John!
Like The Maine, I’d never really heard of the next act; We The Kings; a Floridian quartet with a penchant for pop-punk antics and a real rapport with the crowd. While they powered through tracks like ‘Check Yes Juliet’, ‘Skyway Avenue’, and the slower ‘This Is Our Town’, I began to see the appeal of this band. I began to feel real admiration... respect even. I half-fell in love with We The Kings that night. The other half came when I listened to their album all the way through. And my respect doubled.

Then came the main event; my reason for being there (thought I was certainly not disappointed by the supporting acts!). Vocalist William Beckett owned the stage; owned the crowd. They walked out and any form of order was lost. Steam-rolling into an epic set, starting with the fast action ‘Neighbors’, the band made sure the crowd was listening and standing to 'Attention'.

The crowd were into it... to say that would be the understatement of a lifetime, the crowd loved it! They loved TAI! Screaming every word they knew, listening to every word they didn’t, punching fists into the air with beats of The Butcher’s drumming, jumping, sweating... the crowd loved it.

Speaking to the band after, they seemed pleased with the turn out, how the show went, and a few autographs and pictures were written and taken.

All in all, the night was a complete success, thoroughly enjoyable and one I’ll remember for a long long time to come.

Happy gigging! :D

Myspace Facespace Walker!Greatness

2008-10-19T23:48:00.002+01:00

So I was on Myspace, as I generally am, and there are these advertisements that come up... or are like... randomly allocated the top right hand corner of the page?

Anyway, I was staring at one and I thought... wow.

What a piece of genius.

HAHHA!

I call this Ode to JWalk

On a completely seperate note (discounting obvious connections)

My friend spoke to Patrick Stump on the phone today.

We spent the subsequent hours fangirling. :)

Saw it, Wanted it, Threw a fit, Got it

2008-10-17T10:35:00.001+01:00

For someone hoping to enter the music industry in one way or another... I really don't like the attitude of a lot of fans of music.

Why does everyone have to be so narrow minded?

Fortune favours bravery, the brave just cash in

2008-10-16T01:06:00.003+01:00

So I blew up at Milena today.

Well... technically I didn't exactly 'blow up' at her... but she was made aware of how pissed off I was.

It started upon entering PP... says she as if starting a story with actual meaning that has nothing to do with my need to vent.

Anyway... PP...

I got out of my lecture and went down to college to see Diane and Laila... Laila said go on up to PP so I went upstairs into PP where I found them, and sat down.

Laila, Diane and Milena. A fun happy family.

Right?

Fuck you.

I had class notes to write up neat so I did that while the world span around me. Laila shared her pasta with me cause she rocks and the pasta was really... I mean.. really very nice.

Jodie arrived then and that had a cool factor too.

Cause Jodie...? Kinda very cool in the band-meeting-getting-invited-to-aftershow-parties kinda way. Y'know?

Also, a very good laugh too.

While fun was being had with laughter and chat...there was a constant monotone drone in the background.

Milena.

She... GOD!

I don't even know.

Ok. She as two guys in her life.

The first one faked his own death to spite her or some shit like that.... Alright, he's a prick for doing it, if he did it. (Not that I'm doubting her word)... fuck it, who the fuck am I kidding? I doubt and doubt a-fucking-like. Though, why would she make something like that up? Exactly.

Anyway, I couldn't give a crap about him; don't know him, don't particularly want to know him tbh.

Then there's Danny. Danny's a seriously nice guy. Well. he is in my opinion, and a lot of other peoples opinons... too many 's'.

We've only recently started talking and I actually like talking to him a lot; he makes me laugh, he's just fun to be around.

Milena can't decide whether she hates him or loves him.

I think she's obsessed with him.

She claims she's over him, but she still likes him, but she hates him - oh no, but she LOVES HIM!!!!!! And wants to go out with him again! And hte other day when we were on the benches and talking, all she wanted to do was smack him upside the head when all she did was make goo-goo eyes at him! But she totally hates/loves/lusts/obsesses/what-thefuck-ever over him.

And he has a new gf.

He happens to be Milena's ex btw.

And ffs

This GUY!

He gives great hugs too.

A fact she turned around again and said 'he hugs everyone in the group but me on purpose, just to spite me'.

And today... today I snapped. I had enough and shit went from bad to worse and I had to get the fuck out of there >.<

We were walking down passed the Alhambra and I was kinda a little ahead of Diane and Milena and heard her going on about Danny and the other dude again.

And I shouted 'OH FOR FU-'

Stopped.

And walked away very quickly.

Like. Seriously quickly.

Diane caught up with me and I told her kinda what was wrong and after we went to Starbucks (where I saw Jake! Score! :D) she apologised for bad-mouthing Danny and me being the total and utter passive aggressive fuck that I am, took it with a smile and a hug and accepted the apology.

Like she isn't going to be doing the exact same thing tomorrow.

On a plus note, I got my maths assignment done and dusted.

Very cool tbh.

Glad its out of the way!

-Pfftr

Annoyances

2008-10-12T20:07:00.002+01:00

ok, so maybe I take things too personally.

I happen to like MCR... and FOB...

so when someone turns around and says... 'people seem to be making fun of mcr a lot lately... it's funny' I think I can be excused for being annoyed.

*sigh*

I can handle people not liking the bands I'm into. I'm used to it.

Last Friday, I brought in three DVDs for my friend and the resident metalhead pointed at each in turn and went URGH, URGH, URGH.

That, I laughed at and said 'fuck you, I like 'em'.

That was that.

Fuck it.

I'll just not mention them in conversation anymore.

On another note...

Tool are the heaviest metaliest Elevator Music band of all time.

It's brilliant :D

Seriously, I was listening to their album yesterday and I thought... woah... dude... if I got in an elevator and this was on, I totally wouldn't bitch about it.

Tool are very cool.

Rhyme was both unintended and unavoidable.

So I got up today at 7:00 with Ben, who went back to sleep for half an hour in bed with me before waking up fully... but when he woke up fully, he was giddy and rolling around the place but everytime i pulled him back to me, I thought about Kohl eyeliner and the fact that mum and dad were at the carboot selling make up.

Weird. Yes.

My friend is currently overdosing on Cobra Starship in preparation for the gig in January.

I keep telling her too much Gabe simply cannoy be good for the soul... but I think I'm far too influenced by canon.

Meh.

-Pfftr

Goosebumps

2008-10-12T12:58:00.002+01:00

Do you ever get goosebumps when you hear a song for the first time, or even over and over... and you're thinking... Wow... this is so good its giving me goosebumps.

That, btw, wasn't a reference to GCH.

It happens to me sometimes.

I'm watching snooker now.

ohmyFUCK myspace + facebook = FACESPACE

2008-10-09T23:18:00.002+01:00

im sick to the back teeth of hearing about OBAMA!

im sympathetic...

but fuck

america does not own the internet (even though it cautiously may do) and OBAMA DOES NOT HAVE TO BE FUCKING EVERYWHERE!

:|

fuckfuckfuck

i think i have something on my oesophagus. or however its spelt

I tried to go the whole entry without using the shift key...

that face fucked it up for me seriousstylE

Warning: Complaints. LOTS.

2008-10-08T06:27:00.002+01:00

I haven't been able to sleep all night.

Usually, David Attenborough can get me to sleep with his voice describing the various animals in existance, but no, not tonight, not for Chrissi oh no.

Tonight... or rather... this morning, Chrissi has nay been able to sleep.

Know why?

The radiator in my room, is on its lowest setting, like, ever.

And my room is like a fucking SAUNA!

But I can't turn it off because if i turn it off, the room will be freezing. Like. Freezing. Freezing.

Did I mention Freezing?

CAUSE IT'LL BE FREEZING!

On another note, I need to make a mental note to buy myself a laptop cooler... that I can sit my laptop on and let it be all not hot n stuff

AND FUCK!

My alarm just went off on my phone for half 6 and I just got a fucking earful of the opening chords for 'A little less 16 candles, a little more touch me - FOB'. Not that this is a bad thing.

But I haven't slept.

All.

Night.

AND!!

Guess what? Here's the fuckng kicker of the whole motherfucking SHAbang!

I have FOUR!

That's right.

F.O.U.R

Hours

Of Mathematics.

YOU SEE WHY I'M IN A SLIGTLY TESTY MOOD?!??!?!??!

DO YOU?!

fuck

And yesterday, I came out of uni with a migraine, slept some of it off yesterday afternoon, which is probably why I haven't been able to sleep tonight.

This. Is. Not. Of. The. Good.

:|

-Pfftr

LECTUREBLOOOOZ

2008-10-06T16:50:00.001+01:00

Alright, so... currently in class/lecture/fucking farse, doing nack all and I really really want to go home but I can't bring myself to get up and... like... leave?

Iuno.

It's a pain, I'm in pain.

-Pfftr

i hear the sound of something new

2008-10-05T12:29:00.004+01:00

I have cystitis.

It's horrible and I have to drink cranberry juice (not the reason its horrible).

The thing is, Friday lunch I was going up to Uni with Kim and while she was taking a picture of some headline with her name in, I nipped into the shop and bought Cranberry Ribena.

Unconscious act or not, that shit was nice.

THEN

At lesson, my Starbucks dude wasn't there, he had work - AT STARBUCKS - his name is Jake btw. And he's going onto Media Studies with Music Technology rather like me, which is equal parts amusing, weird and kinda scary at the smallness of this world.

Well, both of us being in Bradford Uni doing the same course isn't really small, but nyeh.

Purchasing Starbucks on Thursday with Sazuh was an event. Got her licking the creamy insides of a JWalk (by the fact of him once working in Starbucks, the bucks and all its entities are thus called, JWalk. True fact) as well as licking said cream off of chocolate buttons.

Having a latte, I had no cream to speak of but I did have a chocolate button and we got some sweet photos.

The rest are available on my photobucket... if anyone weird enough to read knows how to work a web address to do what they like hah :)

Anyway, she was orgasming over my Clandestine Bat necklace the entire day and I so want to buy her one for Christmas or something, AND Diane, but like.... rah. Iuno.

Damn Pete and his lack of reissuing the necklaces. They sold out and alright, I bought one for me, Laila and Nikki... although, Nikki's wasn't Nikki's until her birthday because there was a delay on Laila's necklace before her birthday and I was like... ARGH! I thought the fucker had been cancelled, so I ordered another one, thinking the first had been cancelled and then it arrived, and then the NEW one arrived and woah, ok, Two clan necklaces. One was given to Laila (after receiving which, promptly screamed and hid in my non-cover-giving corner) and the other was... well... left on my windowsill for a long while.

Nikki said she'd buy it, but never sent the money up (I suspect foul play :) ) so when her birthday came around I simply gave it as a present. *shrug* I figured, why not? I was sick of it being here because... I wanted it lol. I wanted them both and sure, I could have had both, they were both mine, but I'm not a greedy person after all.

But get this, only AFTER I gave the necklace to Nikki, Diane started getting really heavily into FOB and the whole FBR shtict. And then it was a case of... 'Where did you get that?!?!???!? I want one NOW!!!!' and me being like... Uh.... the Clandestine Industries Website? *eep*

She goes on and they SOLD OUT!

and then was promptly like WAH!!!!!!! at the fact that Laila told her that I had had an extra one in my house for like, three months, just sitting and waiting around doing nothing.

And she was like *Pout*.

I just hope they come back as a line because seriously? Very popular, and I know of at least FOUR people who greatly desire one.

Back to Starbucks and Friday lunch while I was waiting for Kim, I was talking to Jake (I knewhis name but he didn't know mine at the time, see? And no stalker issues cause, weird much?)

Well we were talking while he was making my Latte and I asked him if he was at the Uni full time now, and.... well.... the conversation went like this:

"Yeah, I have to do this foundation year first though, kinda sucks," *shrug*

"Oh! Foundation year in Informatics?" (I refuse to type out my actual words because that would be silly considering the fact that my stammer played a heavy part in the aformentioned statement)

"Yeah."

"Oh, wow!" *laugh* "So you'll be in all my classes then? Cause, I'm doing that course too," *shrug* *grin*

*laugh* "Oh really? Well, I'm glad I know at least one person," *laugh* "But... I don't even really know you though.... what's your name, by the way?"

*laugh* "Oh! I'm C-C-C...Chrissi!" *triumphant smile*

*hah* "Ah! Cool. Well, I'm Jake." *nods*

"Yeah! I heard yesterday and I was like... Wow, able to put a name to the face, very cool!" *laugh*

....

Then some of his work mates laughed in the background and I had a funny feeling they were laughing at us/me, but me being me, didn't let it bother me because, well, RAH!

OMG!

ON ANOTHER COMPLETELY UNRELATED TO STARBUCKS DUDE NOTE

I totally think I got the last Cobra Starship tickets to their Leeds gig on January 31st.

I went to order them after asking for a loan from my dad for them before they sold out, and they were SOLD OUT on my usual site, so I had a mini heart attack and searched through about ten (five) different ticket sales sites until I found a pair of tickets for £24.20 and I was like WOAH!!!!!!!! VERY FUCKING COOL!!!!!

So I got them and it was like.... a very relieved feeling.

My hands were shaking with the adrenaline though.

And I put a comment on the Cobra Starship pages and rah

Iuno, moment of madness? Intense Relief?

.....

Fuck!!!!

Cystitis is a twat.

no crude pun intended

Really.

none.

:|

-Pfftr -XO!